Now I am deeply discouraged,
    but I will remember you—
even from distant Mount Hermon, the source of the Jordan,
    from the land of Mount Mizar.
 I hear the tumult of the raging seas
    as your waves and surging tides sweep over me.
 But each day the Lord pours his unfailing love upon me,
    and through each night I sing his songs,
    praying to [El Chaiyai].

Psalm 42:6b-8

El Chaiyai: God of My Life (or God Who Gives Me Life)

This defiant, raw faith is the reason I love the Psalms. For the past year or two, when I have been honest, I have described the way I’ve been feeling like this: caught in a riptide. I just get my feet under me before the next wave rolls back out to sea and takes the floor with it. It pulls me, and I fight with all my might, but I still feel I am losing ground. When all around my soul gives way… as your waves and surging tides sweep over me… I am clearly not the first to feel this way.

But each day! Each day! Day in, day out, no exception, “each day the Lord pours his unfailing love upon me.” This is not the God who makes things easy, but this is the God who gives me life. He is My wave breaker, My rock that doesn’t wash out to sea, the reason I am not washed away. He is the reason I live, but not just live; the life He brings is fresh and new every day and never fades. Everything fades but this. This life is not the fading life of earth! It is the eternal life in the presence of the God of Life – our God.